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Oct09 - Seek the Lord while He may be found, Call upon Him while He is near

 this entry should be done ytd but I had to sleep early for Singtel Carnival today (8am in Expo!). After days of rhema, i think i'm slippng into silence time. I've been reading the book of Proverbs Chatper 15 and 16 and vice versa for 2 days. It's like a bottleneck..  As much as I want to move on, to hear more from Jesus, something inside is just not moving, not interested. Am I backsliding again? Just few days after my rhema with Him last Saturday? soar - 300 - revive simple words right to my heart. I want to soar, but i feel my wings are clipped. I want to pray but just mere words from my mouth.. God, please guide me - how to open my wings, how to exercise flying (I dont even dare to think about soaring now). How to log this blog when my words are dry.. so many "how to"s.. Please continue to hold my hands.. just like how Aldric (my down syndrome kid in Singtel Carnival) - when he wants to wander off, i had to hold his hands tight. even if i'm not holding han...

Oct07 : Fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge

 it took me 10yrs to start blogging again.. and 3 weeks of constant nudging from my spirit and procrastinating. Now that i'm facing this screen, i'm kinda wondering what am i supposeed to do..  Let's recap -  July15 : I started on this job which i dreaded so much cos the corporate culture is so so so local, whereas I've always enjoyed working in US/European culture. To make things worse, my boss is so micro-managing despite exclaiming she's open and flexible (humans, we are really blind to ourselves, arent we?) I was just in my 2nd week that I could feel depression sneaking in.. the stress of different environment, the fear of depression.. what am i getting myself into. I knew i need to open up, talk to someone or even pray.. God knows the nights I cried cause I felt so trapped. I trapped myself into this job.  That's when Esther introduced Tiffany to me. I was hesitant approachng a 'career coach' as my previous experience was not very friendly. But I gu...